#iamachristian #prayforsyria


I cried a lot today.

My friend, Michael, who just 6 months ago said, “I’ll never leave Syria. As long as there is any chance of news getting out of Syria, I will stay and translate it.” left Syria today.


Today, I went to church.

Today I sang worship songs again and again to help me remember who God is.

That He continues to be a God of wonders and miracles, who works all things together for good.

Even this. Even this.

He won’t stop. He hasn’t stopped.

Our lives are not our own.

God is patient. He’s patient.

The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance. 2 Peter 3:9

He’s waiting for a repentant heart.

When I can’t even see a photo of ISIS, our Father sees one lost soul, and another lost soul. He see’s evil all over someone He made in His image and He wants that boy He made to repent. And He is patient.

Today we serve a God who has defeated the enemy.

And I know it doesn’t look that way.  I know.


Today we watch cities and nations collapsing by the weight to hatred,violence and fear.

Shootings…in schools.

And we wait.

We wait for our loving, kind, patient God to move.

We say our prayers and wait for God to move.

And Michael gets on his knees and faces Mecca and prays for God to give him safe passage.

We wait for God to move.

And I hold hands with church-ladies and pray for God to give Michael safe passage and for salvation…so He could know our God, our Savior the comforter of our souls.

And we place our trust in Him.

And we burn in our bones till it hurts because He lives in us and justice screams and wails for satisfaction.

And Michael sends a message on IM “It is well, lady. God goes with me. Pray for me.”


Are we know that He is moving even now.

And we know His ways are not our ways. And we know His ways are higher.

And we dare to reach out and reach out again until the one who is moaning for shelter connects with the open door and in that time we meet the face of God and look Him in the eyes.

Filthy face.

Dirt under our nails.

We see the kingdom.

We do not disrepair.

We. Believe.



To donate to boarder camps: http://www.samaritanspurse.org/disaster/refugee-crisis-in-europe

To open your home to a Syrian refugee contact Lutheran Social Services International Foster Program or on twitter #wewelcomerefugees

Crazy Delicious (Gluten Free) Black Bean Brownies


I’ve got kids who DETEST it when I try to slide health into their food (something I do EVERY DAY)

So, when I made some like cheesecake with tofu or brownies with black beans, I keep it on the down low.

What happens in the kitchen, STAYS in the kitchen, right?

I just serve them up and what to discern the expression as “MMMMMMM” or “EWWWWWW”. These brownies are wheat free, gluten free and a slam DUNK every time.

Even AFTER if “spilled the beans” they are still a family favorite and one of my husband’s “love languages”

You won’t believe how EASY they are to make, how easy they are to EAT and how little guilt is involved in chowing down a pan of these brownies!

Dark chocolate black bean brownies

Yield: 10-12 servings


1 15.5 oz. can black beans, thoroughly rinsed and drained
1/2 teaspoon baking powder
1/2 cup + 1 tablespoon sugar or Xylitol
1/4 cup dark cocoa powder
3 eggs
3 tablespoons olive oil
1 teaspoon vanilla
1 teaspoon instant coffee granules or 1 shot of espresso
1/4 cup walnuts, chopped, optional
1/3 cup dark chocolate chips, more if you like


Preheat oven to 350 degrees F. Place parchment paper in the bottom of an 8X 8 pan. Grease the parchment paper. This will be your security blanket to make sure the brownies don’t stick to the pan!!

Place all the ingredients except chocolate chips and walnuts in a food processor or blender and pulse thoroughly until smooth and well combined.

Pour batter in the baking dish. Top with nuts and chocolate chips. Bake for 30-35 minutes or until the top is dry and edges begin to pull away from the baking dish. Cool completely before cutting.